me0nothing's Blog

tho it is to late.u'll see soon just how to late.i told u for 1 1/2 year's:u killed me.now tonite u'r killing me will be done.so here is my deathly closure to u.i told u at the start of last pm's blog.as always no use in repeating myself b/c it don't matter.but suicide death's come with u'r terroritory.u are abouto just see how u literaly killed me.YES this is my suicide note just 4 u.b/c after all:: u r the 1 who killed me.

The blade of my knife Faced away from your heart Those last few nights It turned and sliced you apart This love that I tell Now feels lonely as hell From this padded prison cell So many times I said Youd only be mine I gave my blood and my tears And loved you cyanide When you took my lips I took your breath Sometimes loves better off dead Youre all I need, make you only mine I love you so I set you free I had to take your life Youre all I need, youre all I need And I loved you but you didnt love me Laid out cold Now were both alone But killing you helped me keep you home I guess it was bad Cause love can be sad But we finally make the news Tied up smiling I thought you were happy Never opened your eyes I thought you were napping I got so much to learn About love in this world But we finally made the news Youre all I need, make you only mine I loved you so, so I put you to sleep.

you ain't even at that e. place no more.damn talk about wanting $$$$.what?tired of some of them too?stained clothes,smelly hair?you are........u ain't ever wanted me to write u.and u think u are just so fucking great:size 8,nordstrom's,banana republic.....yet u are still a divorcee who can't even keep u own ...what 1st hubby not have enough $$$ for u?well we know doc got the $.and probley a fuckin faggott in disguise.i do not at all care anymore how i sound.i AM JUST SOOOO FUCKING PISSED AT U.I FEEL SOOO FUCKING WORTHLESS.TOTALY FUCKING WORTHL;ESS.A FUCKING NOTHING.I HATE  HATE HATE u.you are such ...about images.your poor son'S.but my dumb ass bpd poor fuck don't mean shit to u.it don't mean nothingto u.your all $$$$$,rich mother fucker's,who ''have real problem's''.or more like alot of $$$.FUCK U FUCK U FUCK U.WHY DID U DO IT.WHY?????WHY DID U MINDFUCK ME LIKE THAT???wtf is YOUR problem???you fucking fake blonde bitch.well at damn 50 years old all u really got left is $$$$$$$$$.your a bitch.i am just so pissed at you.i feel so fucking fucked over.why WON'T WON'T WON'T you write back??????because i did'nt enclose a $120 check with my last 2 letter's and because in the reality of it all I AM WORTHLESS NOTHING to you.do you care at all that i am out here killing myself over you??????????care any at all?///FUCK YOU.i hate you.fuck the sirens.i hope it is you splatteered and all yours-all over out front....and i'm gonna take pictures too.

i liked u.i cared about u.i admired u.u were special to me.i thought u were awesome.i thought u were real.i trusted u.i left u in.i left myself vulnerable to u.

i feel worthless to u.like a fucking nothing.i was never anything to u.except to little $.u did'nt  and don't care.it was all an act.what???''fuck u bitch,why u alway's giving ppl dirty look's?'' i told u someone u know told me that was u.wow.what fucking revenge.u made a fool outta me.lieing.conning.wrapping me around u'r fingers with meaningless empty word's.u NEVER CARED.NEVER.i am nothing to u.all u care about is $$$$$$$$$$$.and u care about them other's who could follow/go with u.yeah.i am jealous as fuck.i feel sooo goddamn little.i think back to thing's u said.....and how i so wanted to believe u.but that's all it was:stupid bullshit word's.i about wish u were dead .to just kill it all.everything and erase it all.b/c if i could go back 5 year's ago I WOULD NEVER HAVE COME BACK.i hate u/okay????i really do.i wish i had NEVER even seen u anywhere there.and u know what else,if u bother at this.....u are probley laughing u'r ass off.so fuck this.

i swear,i swear,i swear to fuck::bitch u killed me.

.........let u go.

mean to much.even with the dumb shit i feel......

u r awesome.my favorite person.

 ::me.

 ::right now.

 ::4 u.

all i can do,awesome.   to much a mess;i am.

....with what an evil bitch i am,that i still think u are awesome???so.do u hate me yet?or do u hate me?u already know all my dumb shit about 'everything'..

but can i still say with meaning it :: i hope u have a damn good day.

???

well anyway,here:

.............   if i'm allowed.

these tears i shed will never go away the tears that fall, will remind me of that pain the pain of loss is what i speak the pain that made me fall to my knees this pain is what i so despise but, what can i do but fall and cry i loss my way, to this never ending pain i loss reason to why i should go on the answers i come to will forever haunt my dreams this pain of loss is what truly makes me sceam this yelling person who is me will forever continue to cry and sceam thats why i hate to have these tears fall from my eyes this nightmare of falling tears is what i really despise Tommie Cobb

i am Nothing to u.

fuck it.u don't care.

enjoy u'r $$$.enjoy those ppl so much worth it to u.i feel like goddamn worthless shit.but hey-what the fuck do u care????U DON'T.and btw tell that amanda k.?she to is on my death list.

and still with as pissed and jealous and all my dumb bs..i still like u to death and think u are awesome.but there is so much stupid shit in me-and it is stupid n i'm probley all wrong n fucked up about it-but it is the truth.told u.it does Not get a damn bit easier.i cried for a 1/2 hour b4 them dumb stories last nite and cried again after.i don't think u care.i''m furious n jealous as shit of them people.n i do feel like stupid worthless nothing.ok?sorry-but i am being honest.i ain't gonna go lie n shit about it-its hard enough doing it all truthfuly.not trying to be a bitch tho i am being a bitch.nevermind.i don't feel like botherin with anything/anyone.so done.i'm sick of all this shit.here and everywhere.does no damn good.and it kills me to a agony death that i really am nothing to u.whatever.guess i'll leave it at this much.Nothing n nothing will ever bring u back.and i just wanna die.and i hate the ppl u picked and that i got n feel fucked over--n it does'nt mean a damn thing to u.

i'm still to damn pissed to be nice here.but what's it matter?it does'nt.

here::but not to heartfelt like:::

is NO answer THE answer.....????....no reply.wtf am i to think???

i know.u really don't care.

today is 5 months:no booze.the longest time in 4-5 years.i don't even think about booze anymore unless its brought up to me.just don't like it anymore..omg could i be growing up a tiny bit?no way.